Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Life of Piscine @ Pi

I saw the trailer some time ago, not sure but a couple of months back I think. The trailer intrigued me and made me think how it is possible to picture a live Tiger (he was simply awesome) and a young guy on a life boat?


Hence, I told myself I need to watch this movie -
1 - For the reason it was very intriguing and
2 - To know what the story is actually about - tiger and a boy on a stranded life boat.

I left it as it is, till recently during Deepavali (festival celebrated by Hindu's) , there was tone’s of special program for Deepavali aired on local TV. Here in Malaysia we have the local channel, maintained by the government and as well as the private TV Channel (one and only in Malaysia). Since it’s owned by a private company, one could imagine the extortion of fees done by them.
The greed and need for comfort of sophisticated and up to date entertainment, we oblige the TV company’s whims and nuisance of 1000x times of replay of single movie that actually played over and over for months and might be years.

Well we have to deal with it because there isn’t any choice for decent entertainment. (Unlike me I opt for outdoor entertainment and mostly Internet).

Coming back to the ignition of my curiosity to watch the movie, recently I was in Taipei, Taiwan on a business trip.
Took some time off for myself to move around the city and wow.. It was awesome.
The local TV channels in Taipei with the English movies were constantly playing short video clips and trailers of the movie throughout the days, in between each movie screening. When you keep watching something over and over with no inclination on head or tail of the story, one (who has very high level of curiosity like me, at times *wink) would definitely have the need to see "what the hell is so great about the movie"..
Yes that’s how it all started and I think I'm glad it happened that way because my anticipation level was very high by the time I watched the movie.

Once I reached home, I was going gaga about the movie to everyone including my mom. My mother in recent years watched very limited number of movies in theatre. And considering my continous ranting and rambling and my fixation on the movie, she understood this must be something. Yet she did not spoke anything.

Till the day before we went to the theatre, she did not say yes to accompany me to watch the movie.

Then she managed to watch the trailer and I think she was awe struck by it and she instantly agreed to follow me.

Watching the movie, did and I think would make people wander on the nature of believing in religion and God.

For instance, for those who watched, remember the scene Pi saying prayers before his meal and he would say it to 3 different Gods.

Though the movie and the story is fiction, it was amazingly narrated that it stays and lingers on your mind. The beauty of nature filmed and picturized in the movie was a real feast for the eyes.

I could not imagine how extensive the elaboration of the story in the book might be considering the extent the movie was made.

A friend of mine mentioned that she stopped reading the book the book halfway through because it was very extensive and overwhelming as she was not quipped with such imaginary mind. She even offered me the book, but I declined as I was worried of being demotivated to watch the movie. Hence I didn’t read the book. But after watching the movie, I have requested for the book from her, as I have some perspective of what and how the story goes.

I'm not a good reviewer of any story or book, hence this is not a review of the book but my small perspective of the story.

1- the justice the director and the CGI team has done for Richard Parker was simply breathtaking.

2 - Your believe in God should not be measured how, who and why. Because he doesnt!

3- Never follow others but your own heart at any point of time. Always believe in yourself that I guess leads you to God.

4- Survival is essential and being brave at every "impossible" situation will keep you alive and sane.

5- Being imaginative and thinking of extraordinary things and putting it into perspective for viewing of others makes you definitely a world class Director (Ang Lee).

6- Only problem and qualm I have is the movie was short. I felt it was over too soon.



Monday, October 8, 2012

Giving is the ultimatum

In Hinduism, we believe that giving makes you a better person and that the deed is considered to be the highest level of great deed, one which adds to your list of "dharmam" and instant reduction on your "karma's". In hinduism, the dharma and karma are opposite of each other, basically its the shadow of one another. You can see the consequences of your action form into the other (like when the sun shines upon karma, only dharma's shadow will be seen and vice versa).
In one of part of the Mahabharatam during the Kurukshetra war, Karnan's generosity will be brought to limelight and it will garner him popularity as well as the sighthing of the great krishna's vishwaroopam.. (Well, who wouldn't want to have a glimpse of the greatest god). and Karnan was and is remembered and talked for all his good deeds, as well as his courage.
(My understanding is mainly based from a movie and some online reading so to speak.)
Well that's an old story!!!

What about the new one's.. there are many good Samaritan's out there aren't they? And are you one of them?
Well I'm not, or should I say yet to be one of them. 

Some people think, if they are willing to fork out some $$$ from their pocket that can be a wealthy donation and it should reach to some needy kids or orphans and that they have achieved the "dharmam" requirement in their life and that they will be secured for all their karma's. Is it that true????
For some they think it is still not within their capacity to do the dharma, as they have more time ahead of the days and they would do it soonest possible. Sadly I'm pretty much falling into this category. Why??? My humanly desire's, greed and other not so good attribute refrains me from doing it. And yes, there is always tomorrow or the next month, where I could, would and must spare my pay check.
But on the contrary however, there's been some (very minimal in fact) instances, where I have fairly (my discretion mind it) done my part of the good quest to the needy one's.
But is that enough for me to personify my personality to represent the character of an Ultimate Giver..Well I'm not sure!!!
But i do know that it gives a god damn well satisfied grin on the faces of those who does it much regularly, more generously and what more without any reservation so to speak.

Monday, July 30, 2012

What If

What if you find a cockroach or a fly in your food while you are eating?
Will you still continue to eat?
I know its gross and yack's, But it is a reality check, considering we do not have the privilege of dining at a 5* at all available and possible instances.
It can happen to anyone specially if you were a regular diner at the street side stalls, the Chinese coffee shops, the normal restaurants...
I know its not hygienic at all but sometimes, that's the common site we see around town, specially in KL.
Well, then again it doesn't mean that its dirty and the food is unhealthy.
Its just sometimes the real deal comes from such places and the package is pretty good.

Coming back to my question, would you or would you not eat your food if you find some unwanted visitors in it.
Well it happened to me, last week during lunch.
In fact it has happened on many occasion and I just never bothered much to make fuss about it.
My colleagues and I dropped by to this Chinese coffee shop @ hawker food restaurant.(whatever you call it).
We drove there, as we do not have much choices inside our office premises.
I ordered my favorite, Seafood Noodles soup. The only food I like to eat there.
Its prepared by this old Chinese man, it's an odd feeling I have when I see him. Am not sure if its pity, sympathy or what? Because I feel, he seems a bit too old to work and yet he cooks the food and serve it everyday. And he does it pretty well too.
Its interesting to see him prepare the food at his own rhythm.
My food arrived after 10min, I quickly scooped spoonful and started indulging. half way thru I realized there was a dead fly inside my food.
I was shocked and was pretty worried what if the food is contaminated with virus or something.
Then I looked up and my colleagues were enjoying it they meal with no issues.
I looked at the stall owner this old Chinese man, then I scooped the fly out of my bowl and put it in a dish beside my food plate.
I made sure no one saw what I did and I continued to eat.
I wasn't sure why I continued to eat but after we left the shop I started thinking it over again and realize, I was worried to make a fuss in front of people and was worried for the old Chinese man. Was thinking what will happen if I were to complaint, thus I refrain myself from doing it.

And I also thought of the possibility of me falling sick and the odds were low.
First because the fly would have been dead by the time it fell into the hot soup, 2nd the surrounding area of the restaurant is a pretty decent and clean housing area. Its very unlikely the fly was carrying any dirt in it.
Thus, I thought it would be slightly impossible for me to get contaminated with any virus and the worse thought was "I would just vomit and/or have fever"..that's what crossed my mind.
I was shocked with my nerve but guess what it worked and luck was on my side.
Its like more than a week now and there was no extraordinary situation within me.

I'm not sure if its the right thing but thus far, I've no issues. I know some people who are so paranoid over small issues and thinks of all the impossible things when this kind of things were to happen.
Well I can't help it but think otherwise.
On numerous occasions, I will also not hesitate to eat something that spilled on the table.



Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Samsung SII

I have no incline towards technology at times, yet somethings fascinates me. Like the Samsung SII I bought for myself couple of months back.. I know SIII is out and I should have bought that instead of the latter.
Well I think the functions are still cool and fun. Way better the price was much cheaper and affordable

Anyways, the camera features is what I like the most and manage to capture some interesting pictures a long the way.. so lets see.


Absolutely breathtaking sunset view in Penang during my short holiday trip in April...the actual was much mesmerizing than this.
**I hope my positioning of the camera and the natural light is good..
This is a beautiful Full Moon I captured outside of my house randomly. My phone managed it well by capturing the movement of the cloud and the Moon is intact.

A very unique drink.. combination of Longan fruit, cilantro, celery slice, lemon slice and lemon grass..
From one of our local eatery in KL.. interesting food and they serve it in really really big portions.. and guess what its absolutely yummy.













My friends handiwork.. she is good at baking cakes. It's always a guilty indulgence when you put your fork in it, yet its worth it.
This was a special cake made by her for my 4 year old niece.
One might be wandering what is it on top of the cake. Its actually the fondant icing duplicating make up palette, eye-shadow.
Yes my niece is obsessed with make-up and my sister claim she is my sole heir...


Another creation.. this was for my Brother in law's birthday.
if you notice carefully, there is a lot you could see and learn on the likings of him.. my friend did a good job by putting his favorite's on the cake.

Its interesting the things we are able to capture not only in memory but in our camera.
Its like bringing our memory back to live when we sit and look at the photos...

I must say thank you to Technology..








Sunday, July 8, 2012

Where do i start?

Where do i start?
The weekend put a huge hole in my pocket. Yet I was not able to resist it. ...woo hoooo..
Nora Roberts has been my favorite authour... I actually intend to make my own collection from all her books.




Recently, I bought a book by Freya North - Chances.. its quite a simple story..
In my recent trip I got another book of hers with 2 title's in it. quite a bargain yar...Love Rules & Home Truths.

The next I got this interesting titled books - Doctor Zhivago by Boris Pasternak and Mothers & Daughters by Kate Long..
Well I'm not a good person to review a book or even anything for the matter. I just read it as it is and enjoy it.
Thus, there will not be any review...

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Perfect but Not so Perfect

My colleague while having lunch today asked me "How do you draw a perfectly thick eye liner, every day. It looks so thick and very well balanced and flawless. How long does it take you to do it"?

I told her "take a closer look", she asked me why. "Just do it" I said.

Then I asked "what do you see",

"Your eyes" she said.

"Look at my eyeliner you moron" I said.

"Yes. It's your eyes with the eyeliner that I see now. Will you cut the crap and tell me" she said.

"Can you tell if the eyeliner is actually perfect, the length, the edge of the drawing, the width", I said.
After looking at my eyes deeply for a few second, then she said "yeah, it’s not the same length, the width actually seems off a bit".
I was smiling to her and I said "you are looking at it as it appears but in actual fact it is not as perfect as it seems".
She smiled and we walked back to our place to continue with work.
I think life is the same way.
Anything and everything can and will look simply perfect, flawless if we think it is.

Same as my eyeliner story, this is about me wearing a Saree.

Saree is our traditional Indian costume and refer here for elaborate details on it. "Coz I'm not talking about Saree here".

I love to wear Saree, but had a tough time learning to tie/wear one actually. Hence, my sister (twin) will be the one whom I will sort after for help, for any occasion that requires Saree.

While she is doing me a huge favor, I would make fuss that she is just not doing it the right way. (I regret those moments now)...@-@

I would sulk throughout the time I'm donning it. I would complaint endlessly that it's just not worn correctly, there seem to be a lengthy part in it and blah blah blah.....
And now that she is married and staying away from our house, especially away from me. I had no choice but to learn how to wear the Saree on my own. It wasn’t difficult, even though I could put it on for someone else, I find it difficult to wear it myself most of the time. Especially if it’s those though to handle materials. **There is zillions of it, trust me**

Over the time, over hard work and precision of technique I learned that it actually needs not to be perfect in every angle. And it’s pretty interesting that, what I learned is actually how to hide the flaws of the Saree flawlessly is what makes it exquisite in a way.
I had to attend an Indian Classical based show, invited by a friend. I was adamant to myself to wear a Saree but I was also worried that it might take me more time to actually wear it properly.

I had limited time to wear it as I was running behind schedule (the usual thing because of my visit to my Hairdresser, very typical of me). To my surprise I did not even stand in front of the mirror and fidget the Saree to make it look perfect, while I wore it. Instead I sort of rushed the entire process in less then quarter of the usual time that I spent completing the mission, because I did not want my friend waiting up for me.

To my surprise, I was complimented by my sister that my Saree looked beautiful and perfectly tied. And I was standing there and thinking to myself again and again that I did not wear it properly because I had secured the Saree with safety pin and my selection of Saree type (the material is the easy going one).

And then it came to my sense that, the Saree type and the safety pin did the trick for the day and saved me the compliments.
What I learned is that, the harder we try to make everything to look perfect the more it would fail.
Sometimes, a little invisible flaw and technical fixing at the background like my invisible safety pins does give the Saree an entirely unexpected appearance that it looked absolutely flawless.

So to speak Perfect but actually not so Perfect.



Tuesday, June 26, 2012

In LoVe with LoVe

Have you been in love..

What it’s like? How would you describe the feeling of being in love?
Does it mean you have to be a dreamer, always dreaming away in a far away land..
Does it mean you have to be in a relationship if I asked “have you been in love”

Can’t it be that “I love books, I love food, I love not being involved with someone, I love to dance, I love to talk and importantly I'm in love with love…(too many that I need to stop) and so forth instead of literally being involved in an actual relationship.

I was in a relationship previously and it’s past. The phase of my life has passed on like a moving cloud.
But I have always considered myself to be a romantic and I used to think why is that?

For a simple reason that I love to cherish every moment of life as it is, even while I was in and out of love (relationship technically speaking) as well. Because love and the feel of it just did not seize to mesmerize me.
I’m not shy neither am I naïve to confess, as it was one of the beautiful time/phase of my life and it will always remain the same, even though there was a downfall to it.
Not that it was perfect all the time (if it was I guess I would not be alone now).
I mean how can it be? Cause life is just not perfect in anyway. Is it? We want it to be perfect but want and what it is actually is two different things all together.

There are always ups and downs, like a wild, exhilarating roller coaster ride that one regrets it the moment they sit in. it’s like the most challenging turn or slide or whatever you may call it.
The urge that pushes us to sit in it makes us enjoy the thrill and the excitement of the ride because it makes you feel consummate.

I love to read and constantly get myself a romance based novels at most occasions during my visit to the bookstore. My mom doesn’t fancy it at all, so I do not show what I get most often to her, saving my ears from her.

My twin falls is at the same ground as my mom and does not even look at the books I buy. In fact she has not read any of it thus far. Unless she did it with out my knowledge, Unlikely!!!!
(See that’s a very evident diversity we have for a twin. Two babies’ that shared my moms womb for 9 months. And we are different in many ways).

During my recent visit (I make it a point to do it, every 2/3 months once), I spent quite a hefty ($$$) for the transaction, not to mention the time moving from 1 rack to another searching for books. My legs were screaming and it was not cooperating at all.
I walked out with 5 books, out of 4 which are from my favorite authors. And it was romance novel *tadddaaaa*.

I just enjoy watching love/romance based Movies too. The recent one I enjoyed the most The Vow. It was nice. It was a very light, feel good movie moment.
Because I’m so in love with idea of love, I like to seize every opportunity as it comes. But I’m just not sure if I’m ready to be in love as yet with someone cause that idea still freaks me.

Recently someone was attempting/ trying to take me out.. What’s the term called. Im not sure. Anyways, I liked him we met in a group hiking activity but it wasn’t the sort of like where you wanna go out with him on a date.
He on the other was desperately trying (which was what the whole problem was) to ask me out but not in a suitable way. I’m just not sure how that should be done, but the way he did just didn’t feel good.
So I had to tell him off, that I’m not ready for relationship and do not have any intention for it at the moment as well. It’s not like I hate the lovey doveyy thing. I don’t think I can ever fall out of love but it’s just that I’m so in love with love it self that the idea of sharing it with someone does not seem desirable to me at this juncture of my life.

Is that possible?

I only understood this, after telling him about it. I could not understand or even come to agree with it but that’s what I want, I need and I’m having it for myself for the time being.
Just because I love to read romance book, watch romance movies it does not mean I’m desperately looking for someone to lean on and love. I suppose I will love the one or that one person will look for me when the time is right.

Until then I will be madly, truly be in love with love itself..

Thursday, June 21, 2012

16 signs that shows a house is haunted -Quite interesting

I'm not sure how true is this? but thought i would post to it anyways.. Because it was interesting..

You hear heavy footsteps in the upstairs hallway when you know no
one is up there. Doors slam unaccountably. Commonly used items
disappear and reappear without cause. The kitchen light turns on by
itself. There's the unmistakable scent of a strange perfume in the
air.
These may be indications that your house is haunted. True hauntings
are rare occurrences, and it may be difficult to determine whether
or not any strange phenomena you are experiencing in your home might
be due to a haunting. For one thing, no one really knows what
a "real" haunting is - what causes it or why it starts. There are
many theories, of course, which we have discussed in this space in
the article "Ghosts: What Are They?" But if you think your house may
really be haunted, what can you do about it?


The Signs of a Haunting


The first step is to determine, as best you can, whether or not you
truly have a legitimate case of a haunting.


Not all hauntings are alike, and they may exhibit a variety of
phenomena. Some hauntings feature a single phenomenon - such as a
particular door slamming shut that occurs repeatedly - while others
consist of many different phenomena, ranging from odd noises to full-
blown apparitions.
Here's a partial list of phenomena that might indicate that your
house is haunted:


Unexplained noises - footsteps; knocks, banging, rapping; scratching
sounds; sounds of something being dropped. Sometimes these noises
can be subtle and other times they can be quite loud.
Doors, cabinets and cupboards opening and closing - most often,
these phenomena are not seen directly. The experiencer either hears
the distinct sounds of the doors opening and closing (homeowners get
to know quite well the distinctive sounds their houses make) or the
experiencer will return to a room to find a door open or closed when
they are certain that it was left in the opposite position.
Sometimes furniture, like kitchen chairs, are perceived to have been
moved. Very rarely will the experiencer actually witness the
phenomenon taking place.
Lights turning off and on - likewise, these events are seldom seen
actually occurring, but the lights are switched on or off when the
experiencer knows they were not left that way. This can also happen
with TVs, radios and other electrically powered items.
Items disappearing and reappearing - this phenomenon, which we have
dubbed "the DOPler Effect" (DOP = Disappearing Object Phenomenon),
has been examined in the article "The DOPler Effect." Others have
called this "the borrowers" phenomenon, and it's the familiar
experience of not being able to find a regularly used item - say,
your set of car keys - which you believe you placed in a spot you
routinely place them. But they're gone and you look high and low for
them with no success. Some time later, the keys are found - in
exactly the place you normally put them. It's as if the object was
borrowed by someone or something for a short time, then returned.
Sometimes they are not returned for days or even weeks, but when
they are, it's in an obvious place that could not have been missed
by even a casual search.
Unexplained shadows - the sighting of fleeting shapes and shadows,
usually seen out of the corner of the eye. This phenomenon has also
been discussed in some detail in "Shadow People." Many times, the
shadows have vaguely human forms, while other times they are less
distinguishable or smaller.
Strange animal behavior - a dog, cat or other pet behaves strangely.
Dogs may bark at something unseen, cower without apparent reason or
refuse to enter a room they normally do. Cats may seem to
be "watching" something cross a room. Animals have sharper senses
than humans, and many researchers think their psychic abilities
might be more finely tuned also. (See "Animals and Ghosts" )
Feelings of being watched - this is not an uncommon feeling and can
be attributed to many things, but it could have a paranormal source
if the feeling consistently occurs in a particular part of the house
at a particular time.
Those are some of the most common experiences of those who think
their houses are haunted. Yet even stranger things can happen...


Stronger Evidence
The following phenomena are more rare, but could be stronger
evidence of a haunting:


Mild psychokinetic phenomena - hearing a door open or close is one
thing. Actually seeing it happen is quite another. Similarly,
actually seeing a light go on or off by itself is greater proof that
something unexplained is happening. Do you see the TV or radio turn
on? Or perhaps you're present when a child's powered toy begins to
operate on its own. Doors and windows are locked or unlocked. Some
people report that when they are in bed they can feel and/or hear
something sitting on the bed.
Feelings of being touched - the feeling of being watched is one
thing, and actually feeling like you are being touched is quite
another.


Some people feel something brush past them, something touching their
hair or "a hand" on the shoulder. Some feel a gentle poke, push or
nudge.
Cries and whispers - on occasion, muffled voices, whispering and
crying can be heard. Sometimes it's music from some unknown source.
People hear their names being said. This phenomenon, as is true for
the one above, gains more credibility if more than one person hears
or sees the same thing at the same time.
Cold or hot spots - cold spots are classic haunting symptoms, but
any instance of a noticeable variance in temperature without a
discernable cause could be evidence.
Unexplained smells - the distinct fragrance of a perfume or cologne
that you do not have in your house. This phenomenon comes and goes
without any apparent cause and may accompany other phenomena, such
as shadows, voices or psychokinetic phenomena. Foul odors can happen
in the same way.
Rarer still are more extreme phenomena, some of which have been
called poltergeist phenomena, and can be quite strong evidence of a
true haunting:


Moving or levitating objects (severe psychokinetic phenomena) -
dinner plates sliding across the table; pictures flying off walls;
doors slamming shut with great force; furniture sliding across the
floor.
Physical assault - scratches, slaps and hard shoves. This kind of
personal assault is extremely rare, but obviously highly disturbing.
Other physical evidence - unexplained writing on paper or walls;
handprints and footprints.
Apparitions - physical manifestation of a spirit or entity. These
phenomena are also very rare and can take many forms: human-shaped
mists or forming mists of some indistinguishable shape; transparent
human forms that disappear quickly; and most rarely, human forms
that look as real and solid as any living person, but that disappear
into a room or even while being viewed.


Rule Out Rational Explanations
A person who has experienced some of these phenomena might have
cause to believe that his or her house is haunted. But maybe not. In
fact, according to most experts, probably not. The human mind and
human senses (as any magician will tell you) are easily fooled. And
people can often mistake explainable (if unusual) occurrences in
their homes for the paranormal.


Before you decide there's a ghost in your house or move out from
fear, do your best to find rational explanations for what you are
experiencing. Virtually all of the phenomena listed on the previous
page could have perfectly natural causes:


noises could be house settling, plumbing or even vermin such as mice
and squirrels
opening and closing doors could be faulty hinges or caused by drafts
DOPler phenomena could just be carelessness and forgetfulness
shadows could be just that - shadows caused, perhaps, by a passing
car's headlights
as real as some of these things might seem to you, they really could
be just products of your imagination
Of course, the more extreme the phenomena, the harder they are to
dismiss.


And, as noted above, if multiple witnesses experience the same
phenomena, they are likely to be taken more seriously.
Get help in finding rational explanations for the phenomena. A
plumber might help you find the cause of that banging. A carpenter
can fix that door from closing on its own. A friend or neighbor
might be able to look at your particular experience in a different
way and offer a reasonable explanation for your "haunting" that you
might not have though of. In short, make every possible effort to
prove that your house is not haunted.


Keep A Journal


If you feel you have ruled out rational explanations for the
phenomena that are taking place in your house, and they are still
occurring on a more or less regular basis, document them. Keep a
journal of the phenomena as they happen. For example:


June 2, 2002; 10:30 p.m. - Was sitting watch TV when the bathroom
light switched on by itself. Went in and turned it off again.
June 10, 2002; 9:14 p.m. - Was in the kitchen and heard the
footsteps crossing the upstairs hallway again. No one was up there.
Went up to investigate and could find no cause.
A journal such as this could help with any formal investigation of
the phenomena by experts.


If you hear unexplained noises, attempt to record them with a
portable tape recorder. If there are physical phenomena of any kind,
photograph or videotape them. Keep your journal, recording and
camera equipment readily available so you can document the phenomena
as it happens.


Call the Experts


When should you call a paranormal investigator? Only when you have
ruled out any rational explanations for the phenomena you are
experiencing and are thoroughly convinced that your house is truly
haunted should you contact the experts. Of course, if the phenomena
are extreme and you feel that you and your family are in any kind of
physical or psychological danger, you should call for help right
away.


Who are the experts? There are hundreds of paranormal investigation
organizations across the U.S. and Canada. You can find a state-by-
state listing of many of them here, although I cannot vouch for the
expertise of any of them. Most certainly, they vary in expertise and
in the degree of their practical experience, so you should be
careful in your choice. Troy Taylor, in his article "What Do To When
Your House is Haunted," provides some very good advice for choosing
paranormal investigators, including the qualities they should have
and specific questions you should ask them before inviting them to
check out your home.


Despite whatever strangeness you are experiencing, your house
probably is not haunted. But if it is, perhaps it is a benign spirit
or phenomenon that you can live with. Usually, it is something you
need not fear.

Dreams...what are they???

I'm not certain how one perceives Dream.


A brief explanation from the web in Wikipedia says the below...

Dreams are successions of images, ideas, emotions, and sensations that occur involuntarily in the mind during certain stages of sleep. To read more, refer to http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dream...

This is merely a subject to read and believe or is it experiencing it to believe?? What do you think?

But I mean how does one believe it by experiencing it? It is a very subjective matter, if you ask me...Right?

But I would certainly agree that it plays an imperative part in our life. Wouldn't you?
There is many, absolutely many reference based on my "Google" look up recently.. And yeah there was also a short write up in Yahoo website as well. Read on. (it’s like they knew I needed a tip on the subject. Thanks Yahoo! http://health.yahoo.net/experts/dayinhealth/dream-mysteries-decoded

The reference to this article is related with proof and description of actual events depicting the correlation of dreams in our daily life. It’s fascinating because when you think you are an idiot in a way, the Internet comes as a survival kit because it has abundance of information especially for dummies like me...

Apart from today, I remember "googling" for reference once when I was quite puzzled over a dream I had one night. It was so surreal and vivid that it actually gave me goose bumps.
It was about maggot infesting my surrounding and they were all over me and my surrounding.. Gross right, unimaginable.. I know! I woke up with sweat and a total eerie feeling.
Like my body is full of dirt and I had to immediately take shower at the middle of the wee hours of morning, about 4 or 5am to wash off the feeling of it from me.
Only after a while did it struck me that I'm actually dreaming...when I woke up with an uproar in my head.

Based on my reference reading (which I can’t remember clearly- I have poor memory at times), the dream refers to uncertainty of events happening in one's life that causes many commotion at a certain time emotionally without us being aware of it. It happens in our unconsciously.

It actually refers to emotional roller coaster one is going through in their life that it is transitioned in their dream telling them CHILL!!.. Something to that effect.
Many of times, some say they cannot re-call of dreaming at all (I know of only one person who said that, and I still doubt the legitimacy of the matter and many other things he/she says). He/She refers of not dreaming at all at any point of time in the entire lifetime. How could that be? Is that possible, I’m not sure? Even if it is I can never trust the source for the matter, well that is a different story entirely.

For some they would have and will be able to describe in explicit details about their dreams and it would linger to them forever.
Well there are some for me as well, which I can remember like forever and ever...Is it because I choose to remember it. I'm not sure as well... is there any logic behind this? Please enlighten me...

Well to be precise on my reason to put up this blog is, out of the usual practice I had my short afternoon nap during the weekend and all I had when I woke up is fear with uneasiness over a dream.

It hardly happens to me because I’m not the sort who gets nightmares and goes running to someone for consoling... I cannot recall of such things happening to me... not that I’m trying to be the macho type but I’m more of the practical type and seriously can’t remember of such events.

Anyways the dream was related to me directly and the first part of it was actually a very uncomfortable one. It goes like this, I'm losing my teeth one by one, it sort of falling off from my gums while I’m brushing my teeth. I was chagrin of it. How will I smile, how will I show my face to my friends and family, and what will I do? Where is the best doctor for me to get this fixed?
Can you believe it? I can remember it from my dream!
Oh Yes I can remember, beauty is priceless and the fear of losing it can be unnerving. Especially if it’s losing the precious little teeth.

Following it I was in a temple and I was sleeping (in my dream mind it). And I’m dreaming in it while I’m sleeping or was it I’m having a premonition, can’t recall which is which now? (I learned the word from the famous series Charmed. The famous Halliwell Sisters who had witchcraft power where they could slay vampires, demons, warlocks & etc with their super natural powers with the aid of the Book of Shadows). I was a devoted fan of these series.

How I wish it was real and we all had the privilege to this.

Anyways, coming back to my dream @aka premonition, I was screaming over something that happened to someone in my family, I can’t remember who it is now. And I woke up to a little tap on my shoulder by my nephew.

It was very bizarre to wake up thinking I was actually dreaming in my dream.

I could not grasp why and what such dream meant but it gave me a very restless feeling whenever I think of it. I’m not the kind to be affected by such things, yet it did..

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Happy Fathers Day..

At 6am, when i struggle out of bed to get ready to school, he is already sweating himself in our kitchen preparing the breakfast meals to sell with my mom. Then when we leave to school and he will still be doing the chores of packing the food to carry it with him. That's how he used to feed us by earning extra income..

While I'm quite active in sports activity in school i never failed to have an ardent fan in the school field. he will be carrying his motorcycle helmet and walk his way down to the field to see us play the game.
my friends loved to see him as he was a great support to all of us..

I remember another moment, when I've already started college and as usual, did not do so well in one of my semesters and failed a paper.
The only lecture i got from him was, a hug and encouraging word telling me not to worry. things will get better, do your best the next time.
The struggles i used to see him encounter was countless and the effort and hard work he used to put to see us successful is enormous. i could never count the numbers of times I've seen him tire.

There was a time my mom gave me cash of 500 to give my dad to pay rent for our store. i lost the money along the way and i was very worried and torn between fear because of what my dad would say. and as well guilt of not being careful and getting scolded. Because my dad has short temper and sometimes it is unpredictable why and what he would have to say for my carelessness. Least did i know what would to expect.
a hug and soothing word calming my sobs telling me money can be earned do not worry my sweetie.. 
like the above, there is countless moments in my life that i can think of the best times I've had with my dad. i try to cherish each and every one of them.
Because he never ceased to surprise us, as we grew with his unspoken strength and determination to give us the best. His will power to fight each day as it comes with extreme perseverance.
He was and is my hero at any time.... i miss him a lot but I'm sure he is watching us peacefully knowing he has made all of us to be who we are now.. Happy Fathers Day..

Friday, June 15, 2012

THE MOST DANGEROUS PLACE TO BE A GIRL

Can a baby, be such a burden? When they are just a new born girl?

Human being has evolved into magnificent creatures with magnanimous creations in this world.

Yet a small thing such as "gender" makes it a predicament for the parents to not keep unborn child under their care for simple reason - It’s a GIRL.
Of all the places it’s happening in India.

I cannot stomach the thought. The land which is so rich in culture, value and one of the first civilizations proven existed in the world is declared as "THE MOST DANGEROUS PLACE TO BE A GIRL". Can you believe it. Shame on them...

Refer to the below link today’s news in CNN.

http://www.cnn.com/2012/06/14/world/asia/india-female-infanticide/index.html?hpt=wo_c2
I'm not born in India, but I'm an Indian born and raised in Malaysia and been thought to accept the one and only INDIA to be my motherland no matter what.

Still I’m perplexed and astounded in the ignorance shown by this unworthy piece of trash (the father of the child).

He should be man slaughtered…..

No. Probably he should be sent away to a land where there is no survival means, where he will die of hunger and left alone with no family with him.
I just could not fathom or even digest the thought he had brutally tortured a 3months old baby.

Where are we actually....

Friday, June 8, 2012

Late Night Supper that cost more than it should

I came across this article in the e-newspaper this morning and felt it should be spoken about.

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2012/6/6/nation/11422568&sec=nation.

My mom is pretty conservative when it comes to late night outings. She was never in favor of it at any point of time in my life. (Even tough I’m all so grown up). I still have to be back home the latest by 12am (even that is late for her) and as a good daughter I try to honor her request almost all the time (which means I tend to ignore her at times).

This will then create a silent cold war between her and me, probably that will last till the next morning/afternoon. I can’t stand a day without talking to her.

While I sulk over the fact that she is still so backward on her mindset with no inclination of the trend and lifestyle, I do not show her my feelings or say anything to upset her on it. As I have too much of a respect with her way of life and believes.

But I must say I do have my share of gallivanting at late night while she is out of town (which lately she's been doing on a very favorable number of times for herself-I’m more than happy she is able to do it). I’ll go clubbing, watch movies or probably late night coffee or tea (is a very common thing for us in Malaysia) and for late night supper too at the hawker stalls or the most commonly known "Mama stalls" which mostly owned by the Indian Muslims minority with their famous Briyani's, Roti Canai, Teh Tarik, Nasi Lemak and etc.

Then again I always thought my mom do have a point on her believe and she is right because sleeping late and waking up late does leave you tired and lethargic at times.

And please note at her age she is phenomenally early in the mornings and please note exceptionally very early at some point.

*Which I just lack the practice.

For me staying up late and sleeping in past the regular hours is like an indulgence for my hard work throughout the week and she will never deprive me on it unless yes there is a special need for it.

Most importantly her reason for not accepting the late night outings is due to security concerns. She will be too worried that she will be awake and waiting till I’m back home.

Well now that I read the article in the attached news link, I think that what she worries is a rightful maternal feeling for her as a mother and has more meaning rather than an outdated and unfashionable mom of the era.

She always has a point in it and I could not agree the least of her believes.

Some might say it was just an unlucky day for the guys who got robbed based on what happened to them (from the article) but I think (and my mom would say this) that it was their own doing for creating an opportunity for an undesired invitation to an unwanted company at the late night.

“Well hell who asked you to stay up so late outside your house, when you know there are things happening all around. Don’t you read newspapers to learn from the lesson of others”. Probably that’s how my mother would have sounded to me if I had related the news to her. So I knew better NOT to open my mouth..



Sunday, May 27, 2012

The days in my week

I've been away for way too long (i feel like it) even though i just got started. under the circumstances where i did not have a laptop, i had to skip from writing..even though i had millions and trillions of ideas popping up once in a while telling me write this, put this into words and etc.
Now that i have settled myself with a decent laptop, DELL Latitude (don't ask me the model), I'm back on the game.
it feels good to think and write...its like your mind just flows the words that is transferred to the keyboard and then to my laptop screen.
but what am i to write? what is my topic? *daaahhhh i don't have one*
WTF* i don't have a topic but I'm blogging, what kind a of an idiot can I be?

on a second thought.,.. blogging should be fun right and it should be the excitement that comes along reading what was running and humming in your own head.

so i decided i shall write about the week...

Monday - I can't remember what happened. (coz today is Sunday and its like 6 days post Monday - jeez)

Tuesday - oh yeah i remember going to temple in the evening. dats good progress.

Wednesday - boring working day.. coz my honeymoon days at work is over. Oh i was whining away because i could not understand much of the Flow charts to write the damn process all over again. but yeah i managed.
I was thinking and looking and gawking at the charts it made sense coz it was so thorough and meticulously drawn. i have to say hats off to the person..
(those who don't understand what I'm saying, sorry its just i needed to get it out of my head)

Thursday - yeah,,,, what happened? *puzzled i am*

Friday - yes.. lunch with my buddy and then dinner with BFF..
i just love this girl. (i mean sisterly love)

Saturday - was a power pack weekend start off..
i was up by 7.30am..after so long i thought i could sleep in but..*sigh*
then i had to be in Brickfields (for my youth association) it was good feeling that we (me being part of the association) can contribute something.
then i went to the university to enquire on my part time studies..YES finally i have decided its high time that i went back to school.
it was a damn good feeling, i was in high-spirits..
then went over to my new home...it was extremely weird, thinking i will be moving out on a temporary basis. i kinda like the idea of being out of home but just not sure if i can survive.. I'm just i dunno been too long under the shadows of my family.. my mom specially.

Yes today is Sunday, actually its gonna be over in another 15minutes only..
where the hell did the weekend go.. i was planning to sleep through Sunday but no it didn't happen. i was up early to take my mom out to temple. i didn't regret it but it was tiring.. mentally coz we have trained our mind in such a way, dat sleeping late was the best thing ever. but its otherwise for my mom and i still wonder how she does it.
i was planning on taking an afternoon nap while brushing my teeth.. lame isn't it..*i know.
Then guess what i watched movie all through afternoon. not from the tv ..its lousy movies these days (not even A single day, I'm enjoying it)
it was from my laptop..No YouTube..
The evening was awesome, i was kinda very good to myself. a lot of self pampering took place. facial, foot scrub and body scrub and it was just heavens..
and now I'm in bed sulking away coz its 10mins to midnight.. i should be asleep coz tomorrow is working day yet I'm still up..
what is wrong with me..
hahahahaha nothing..it was just fun to pretend like the was something.
anyways i had fun typing *not that it made any sense*
Good night people..

Thursday, March 29, 2012

FriendShip...

Well it took me a few days to complete this blog as i wanted to ensure that everything that is related to the topic which is wonder to me, is plotted well through my words.

When we say the word FRIENDSHIP, what does it mean to you? for me it brings back countless memories of good old days, long lost friends, my dear good friends and newly met acquaintances.
Days have not been the same with all those reality lifestyle lately, where people move on and get caught with their own life over the time.

For instance, during my younger days, friendship with my school friends was like the most important thing there is ever, i mean EVER! We would do everything the same way. buy the same clothing, will have the same type of school shoes, pen, pencils and even the same pencil box.. (hahahahha).
* but it was fun to do it..and when I think of those things, it was just too hilarious.
We will ensure to call each other the moment we are at home after school, before sleep and during holidays.
I used to have groups of friends surrounding me all the time during the school days as I was very actively involved in curricular activities. *Thus, it was very norm to have a lot of friends.
There used to be this group of noisy and hyperactive girls, and then there was another group, who used to be so naive about everything and practically too quite to be around with.
This bunch of noisy girls were always up to something and sometime it was like there is a catfight all the time. There was once we were all counselled by the school teacher for being irresponsible towards our fellow classmates. *boo hoo. (I cant even remember her name now).

Then we moved on to our Secondary school life. Some moved on to different schools and some of us stayed on together.  Surprisingly years ahead was different than what we thought it would be like. Some of us stayed on together and became good friends during the years that followed. The friendship we had blossomed to become vital part in our daily life...
Though some moved on to different schools we manage to keep in touch and yeah for some it was tough to keep in touch.
*Yes I admit I'm one of those who finds it had to take the initiative to keep in touch..*boo hoo* ( im trying to get rid of those habit)

Then came the after school life, College days.. Again more friends were made.
This group was more of the naughty one's hanging outside of class most of the time. sneaking out for cigarette breaks (*me accompanying them), watching movies and heading back home late after classes, partying (except for me).
I would say this group was the adventurers in the city and the rebels within them were super demon. You know its pretty much the same story for all those college boys and girls. Right after their schooling days, they are just excited that the world is for them to venture and enjoy through and through with no boundaries. Hence, they became very excited for partying, clubbing and every sort of entertainment related activity other than education related one's.

The life just kept moving on. There were just no end to it.
Each time All these new friendship comes into our life and it feels like something we have lost along the way in our life where we just sort of pick it up from where we left off. Doesn't it amazes you how someone from such a different background, different place could just click into this bonding called Friendship..

I've been meeting a lot of new people. Practically every week because I'm busy going for some outdoor activities.
It just adorns me how fascinating the relationship bonds together between this people and myself.
For instances, I met this group of guys and gals over a trip. I barely know them, however we blended so well and we have already started planning other trips together.
More than 10 years ago I met this chubby, naive boy (i would say) in college. We are such good buddy's that we could share anything and could never lie to each other.
How is that and why do we feel its a necessity and why cant we stay away from this relationship.

Well I'm still amazed, how could you connect to someone and be attached to them in this single bonding called friendship.



Friday, March 23, 2012

Daily Life Learning

Its interesting and fascinating to re-call what are those things we actually learn on daily basis in our life.
Its also fun and silly when our brain goes like --- *wow-its interesting, I didn't know that, shacks-why didn't I think of that, hmmm- I learned something today*.

I was reading through the Yahoo News reel.. and a unique word caught my eye (I have this habit of instantly google'ing a word to search the meaning if i dont understand) - Impromptu
Some might think like "what you didn't know that"... I couldnt care less, coz sometimes that's how i learn and progress.
Coming to my point, it excited me that when I read about the meaning, it's actually a new learning and addition to my dictionary.. and i went like *Hey you learned something new today*
Again the excitement is genuine.

To continue with my learnings....
I learned lately that I could not get my eyes of my laptop desktop screen saver picture of this handsome Golden Retriever. I'm pretty sure I'm getting one of this fellows soon... 

Moving on in my list I started having an incline towards nature. The beauty of tree, sky, river, hills, mountains and everything inside that jungle gives me peace of mind. I learned that the serene beauty of the woods can never be enough to me now. My mind races towards time now to see as much as possible and as fast as i could possibly imagine.
I knew photography was very exciting, but when I started learning how to look at the beauty of what I want to capture into my camera's memory, it just dawns me that there is more to it then taking the pictures.
It requires an artistic and creative view. the whole new perspective in observation skills and the most important the visualization of the photographer.....there is just no end to it. *wink*

I'm happy that I'm getting to know more people every other day. I feel elated for all the new friendship as I realized I'm learning to see new things without borders..

I've also learned I can never be away from my family for a long period of time.. I'm just so addicted to them because of the pampering and love given at all times. (even tough I'm so grown up now).

I learned that every time I encounter an unfortunate event or an unforeseen situation in my life, there's always someone there by my side. Do I call my self gifted or have I learned to appreciate abundance of love from my loved one's...

This list is just a snippet from what I learn to acknowledge from life on daily basis..

There could never be an end to this list and I strongly feel if you learn to understand and appreciate all this small joys and abundance the life has to offer to you, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL and WE WILL LIVE IT EXCITINGLY...



Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Adventure back to Nature

Nature..
Description from a dictionary. interesting :)
noun
1.
the material world, especially as surrounding humankind andexisting independently of human activities.
2.
the natural  world as it exists without human beings orcivilization.
3.
the elements of the natural  world, as mountains, trees,animals, or rivers.
4.
natural  scenery.
5.
the universe, with all its phenomena.


To me, it means going to back to the beauty that has been holding us and breathing for us for decades and centuries.
For some it would be the tranquillity of the view and for some what the beautiful mother nature has to offer.
I have concluded that its the both for me. and every time it gives me a sense of belonging and peace to the ever lasting stress I go through in my daily ordeal of the leaving under the crowding space formed by the sky scrappers in city life.

Well one of the adventure was this trip we made to Taman Negara over the weekend. it was a 3D 2N getaway with bunch of friends. it involved driving, eating, camping, BBQ'ing, trekking, rapid shooting and etc..
The National Park is located at Pahang, Malaysia. 
To start the journey with a bang, we decided to take the route through another exhilarating spot - Bukit Fraser. 
Apparently the famous Clock tower in Fraser's Hill. 
We did a pit stop in Bukit Fraser for breakfast and then continued our journey by cruising the small town and all the other beautiful spots up this hill. 
We went on to Bentong for our Lunch and then yummy yummy home made ice cream in Bentong town. 
Finally we hit the highway and head towards Taman Negara via Temerloh and Jerantut. It was fun 2 1/2hours journey I spent with 3 wonderful ladies. 
Walahh at 5pm (not sure if exactly) we reached destination. 
We checked in to our Resort. 

Due to time constraint started packing the necessity for night adventure at the Taman Negara with our camping tent, food for BBQ, and our sleeping bag. 
We had to rush as the sun was dawning and worry of no lights started to worry us.. but guessed what it looked more like a camp at the backyard of house. 
This are some interesting photo's I managed to capture. 


the endless beauty of the nature in this woods is absolutely breathtaking. the shadows of the tree leaves, the sounds of the unknown creatures to me were an adventure. 
I'm definitely looking forward for a another round of trip into this jungle that has millions of years old mystery that one could only look, enjoy and mesmerise.