Quest for Life!!

Now there is a word that tingles and excites the soul within me and pretty sure it does for many.
And I too, have had my share of the pleasures and the whims of the beautiful word. It can be worthwhile, exhilarating, exciting and deadly. For those who experience it, you know what it mean when I say deadly. **Wink.
Not that it literally means that it causes death.. then again yeah it gives you a heartache that it can be too excruciating than the pain of death. Well that was how it was for me. Because the thought that death was far more better than the heartache itself. I cannot compare what, how death would feel but I figured that could be a resolution to the pain because i didn't want to feel it.

Ok, lets not go back there, why, simply I have learned my lesson and decided to cherish those wonderful moments and keeping smiling to myself thinking it over and over.
Everyone has a past that could be bitter to the core, that sometimes they need to put it away (nicely wrapped, tucked into a box), instead of complaining about the pain and the deadliest (i know it sounds too harsh) encounter in my life.

Life is so like an unbalanced scale most of the time and the funny part is you can never guess which side is the heaviest and why is it so? Because you might end up thinking that the heavier must be the one which is heavy with all the bad memories. Such its heavy like your heart. The other side should be the lighter one because you have put everything away and thus light hearted moment starts.
At times, this will lead you to think about all the positive things that happen in your life might be greater and and at some instances it would be the other way round.

You might just end up at a crossroad thinking and thinking where and why there isn't anything positive or good happening to you...

Well, that's life! Sucks doesn't it.I know because that's how i feel.

However, those were the days where I always used to think that way. The same thought used to repeat itself and I would think that banging my head on the wall was the best way to seek an answer, where its always a futile attempt.
And at some point of time, well we move on. And yes it's taken me longer than it should be. I guess I'm still very skeptical and not too mention conventional too...
Maybe, the wall that's surrounding me keeps me away from everything.. Such as LOVE..Because some thinks the saddest part in my life. But its not for me. I've had fair share of turbulence's without the big letters.

Till recently, I met someone. Someone from a group of friends that I met him while on a road trip to National Park back here.
My oh my can he be a pain.. yes!!
Can he be a sweetheart, yes that too!!
And can he make you laugh?? Without a doubt!!!

Then again something just didn't click. What was it?? Then it me the whole thing reminded me of something.. Yes, its my past!!
Why?????

I guess there is just way to much similarity between the 2 of them, or maybe I see it as similarity or I'm looking for the similarity?

And I guess that was the reason I was attracted to him, which later I realized that it was merely a desperation of myself to fill in the gap that I was feeling...
Yes, after all I'm a normal human being and a women who is simply in her quest for life (which I just figured out)..

At the end of the day what I'm trying to say is that, life took me through many twist, turns, bumps, humps and God knows what else, just for the sake one word "love" and I just didn't have any luck with it...guess I'm just not destined for it or its not my time.

But i realized there is more to life... and now I'm in my Quest for thee!!

Samsung SII

I have no incline towards technology at times, yet somethings fascinates me. Like the Samsung SII I bought for myself couple of months back.. I know SIII is out and I should have bought that instead of the latter.
Well I think the functions are still cool and fun. Way better the price was much cheaper and affordable

Anyways, the camera features is what I like the most and manage to capture some interesting pictures a long the way.. so lets see.


Absolutely breathtaking sunset view in Penang during my short holiday trip in April...the actual was much mesmerizing than this.
**I hope my positioning of the camera and the natural light is good..

This is a beautiful Full Moon I captured outside of my house randomly. My phone managed it well by capturing the movement of the cloud and the Moon is intact.

A very unique drink.. combination of Longan fruit, cilantro, celery slice, lemon slice and lemon grass..
From one of our local eatery in KL.. interesting food and they serve it in really really big portions.. and guess what its absolutely yummy.

My friends handiwork.. she is good at baking cakes. It's always a guilty indulgence when you put your fork in it, yet its worth it.
This was a special cake made by her for my 4 year old niece.
One might be wandering what is it on top of the cake. Its actually the fondant icing duplicating make up palette, eye-shadow.
Yes my niece is obsessed with make-up and my sister claim she is my sole heir...

Another creation.. this was for my Brother in law's birthday.

if you notice carefully, there is a lot you could see and learn on the likings of him.. my friend did a good job by putting his favorite's on the cake.

Its interesting the things we are able to capture not only in memory but in our camera.
Its like bringing our memory back to live when we sit and look at the photos...

I must say thank you to Technology..

Happy Fathers Day..

At 6am, when i struggle out of bed to get ready to school, he is already sweating himself in our kitchen preparing the breakfast meals to sell with my mom. Then when we leave to school and he will still be doing the chores of packing the food to carry it with him. That's how he used to feed us by earning extra income..

While I'm quite active in sports activity in school i never failed to have an ardent fan in the school field. he will be carrying his motorcycle helmet and walk his way down to the field to see us play the game.
my friends loved to see him as he was a great support to all of us..

I remember another moment, when I've already started college and as usual, did not do so well in one of my semesters and failed a paper.
The only lecture i got from him was, a hug and encouraging word telling me not to worry. things will get better, do your best the next time.
The struggles i used to see him encounter was countless and the effort and hard work he used to put to see us successful is enormous. i could never count the numbers of times I've seen him tire.

There was a time my mom gave me cash of 500 to give my dad to pay rent for our store. i lost the money along the way and i was very worried and torn between fear because of what my dad would say. and as well guilt of not being careful and getting scolded. Because my dad has short temper and sometimes it is unpredictable why and what he would have to say for my carelessness. Least did i know what would to expect.
a hug and soothing word calming my sobs telling me money can be earned do not worry my sweetie.. 
like the above, there is countless moments in my life that i can think of the best times I've had with my dad. i try to cherish each and every one of them.
Because he never ceased to surprise us, as we grew with his unspoken strength and determination to give us the best. His will power to fight each day as it comes with extreme perseverance.
He was and is my hero at any time.... i miss him a lot but I'm sure he is watching us peacefully knowing he has made all of us to be who we are now.. Happy Fathers Day..

FriendShip...

Well it took me a few days to complete this blog as i wanted to ensure that everything that is related to the topic which is wonder to me, is plotted well through my words.

When we say the word FRIENDSHIP, what does it mean to you? for me it brings back countless memories of good old days, long lost friends, my dear good friends and newly met acquaintances.
Days have not been the same with all those reality lifestyle lately, where people move on and get caught with their own life over the time.

For instance, during my younger days, friendship with my school friends was like the most important thing there is ever, i mean EVER! We would do everything the same way. buy the same clothing, will have the same type of school shoes, pen, pencils and even the same pencil box.. (hahahahha).
* but it was fun to do it..and when I think of those things, it was just too hilarious.
We will ensure to call each other the moment we are at home after school, before sleep and during holidays.
I used to have groups of friends surrounding me all the time during the school days as I was very actively involved in curricular activities. *Thus, it was very norm to have a lot of friends.
There used to be this group of noisy and hyperactive girls, and then there was another group, who used to be so naive about everything and practically too quite to be around with.
This bunch of noisy girls were always up to something and sometime it was like there is a catfight all the time. There was once we were all counselled by the school teacher for being irresponsible towards our fellow classmates. *boo hoo. (I cant even remember her name now).

Then we moved on to our Secondary school life. Some moved on to different schools and some of us stayed on together.  Surprisingly years ahead was different than what we thought it would be like. Some of us stayed on together and became good friends during the years that followed. The friendship we had blossomed to become vital part in our daily life...
Though some moved on to different schools we manage to keep in touch and yeah for some it was tough to keep in touch.
*Yes I admit I'm one of those who finds it had to take the initiative to keep in touch..*boo hoo* ( im trying to get rid of those habit)

Then came the after school life, College days.. Again more friends were made.
This group was more of the naughty one's hanging outside of class most of the time. sneaking out for cigarette breaks (*me accompanying them), watching movies and heading back home late after classes, partying (except for me).
I would say this group was the adventurers in the city and the rebels within them were super demon. You know its pretty much the same story for all those college boys and girls. Right after their schooling days, they are just excited that the world is for them to venture and enjoy through and through with no boundaries. Hence, they became very excited for partying, clubbing and every sort of entertainment related activity other than education related one's.

The life just kept moving on. There were just no end to it.
Each time All these new friendship comes into our life and it feels like something we have lost along the way in our life where we just sort of pick it up from where we left off. Doesn't it amazes you how someone from such a different background, different place could just click into this bonding called Friendship..

I've been meeting a lot of new people. Practically every week because I'm busy going for some outdoor activities.
It just adorns me how fascinating the relationship bonds together between this people and myself.
For instances, I met this group of guys and gals over a trip. I barely know them, however we blended so well and we have already started planning other trips together.
More than 10 years ago I met this chubby, naive boy (i would say) in college. We are such good buddy's that we could share anything and could never lie to each other.
How is that and why do we feel its a necessity and why cant we stay away from this relationship.

Well I'm still amazed, how could you connect to someone and be attached to them in this single bonding called friendship.

Daily Life Learning

Its interesting and fascinating to re-call what are those things we actually learn on daily basis in our life.
Its also fun and silly when our brain goes like --- *wow-its interesting, I didn't know that, shacks-why didn't I think of that, hmmm- I learned something today*.

I was reading through the Yahoo News reel.. and a unique word caught my eye (I have this habit of instantly google'ing a word to search the meaning if i dont understand) - Impromptu
Some might think like "what you didn't know that"... I couldnt care less, coz sometimes that's how i learn and progress.
Coming to my point, it excited me that when I read about the meaning, it's actually a new learning and addition to my dictionary.. and i went like *Hey you learned something new today*
Again the excitement is genuine.

To continue with my learnings....
I learned lately that I could not get my eyes of my laptop desktop screen saver picture of this handsome Golden Retriever. I'm pretty sure I'm getting one of this fellows soon... 

Moving on in my list I started having an incline towards nature. The beauty of tree, sky, river, hills, mountains and everything inside that jungle gives me peace of mind. I learned that the serene beauty of the woods can never be enough to me now. My mind races towards time now to see as much as possible and as fast as i could possibly imagine.
I knew photography was very exciting, but when I started learning how to look at the beauty of what I want to capture into my camera's memory, it just dawns me that there is more to it then taking the pictures.
It requires an artistic and creative view. the whole new perspective in observation skills and the most important the visualization of the photographer.....there is just no end to it. *wink*

I'm happy that I'm getting to know more people every other day. I feel elated for all the new friendship as I realized I'm learning to see new things without borders..

I've also learned I can never be away from my family for a long period of time.. I'm just so addicted to them because of the pampering and love given at all times. (even tough I'm so grown up now).

I learned that every time I encounter an unfortunate event or an unforeseen situation in my life, there's always someone there by my side. Do I call my self gifted or have I learned to appreciate abundance of love from my loved one's...

This list is just a snippet from what I learn to acknowledge from life on daily basis..

There could never be an end to this list and I strongly feel if you learn to understand and appreciate all this small joys and abundance the life has to offer to you, LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL and WE WILL LIVE IT EXCITINGLY...

Love at First Sight

What do you think when you hear those words..
Where does it lead your imagination to, when those words pops in front of you...

Well for me, those words are the rendition of some lovey dovey, rom-com, Indian movie that depicts the illusions of the senseless mind and the imagination that follows there after.

Well for one, I was watching the Bollywood version of a movie "Kal Ho Na Ho" yesterday night on tv....hmmmm..
This suddenly boggled my mind to initiate the idea that's been blabering too long in my head on what it feels like and how it makes you feel.
A very good example of the "Love at First Sight" delusion that is portrayed fantastically that you yourself could feel "Love is in the air" when watching the movie. Well that's the real drama and talent of the movie makers.

Well, I don't deny there could be such thing but how does one re-act to it and the way it is narrated in the movie's are phenomenal. With all those, slow motion, eye-catchy captions of one's movement (the eye, hair, lips,,,wala wala and etc...), the creativity blend, its just too difficult not too feel anything. Yet there is a pleasantry feeling watching these movies no matter how many times.
Me being the true Indian I am, could never deny the prodigious effect these movies leaves to you which makes me go for more..