Quest for Life!!

Now there is a word that tingles and excites the soul within me and pretty sure it does for many.
And I too, have had my share of the pleasures and the whims of the beautiful word. It can be worthwhile, exhilarating, exciting and deadly. For those who experience it, you know what it mean when I say deadly. **Wink.
Not that it literally means that it causes death.. then again yeah it gives you a heartache that it can be too excruciating than the pain of death. Well that was how it was for me. Because the thought that death was far more better than the heartache itself. I cannot compare what, how death would feel but I figured that could be a resolution to the pain because i didn't want to feel it.

Ok, lets not go back there, why, simply I have learned my lesson and decided to cherish those wonderful moments and keeping smiling to myself thinking it over and over.
Everyone has a past that could be bitter to the core, that sometimes they need to put it away (nicely wrapped, tucked into a box), instead of complaining about the pain and the deadliest (i know it sounds too harsh) encounter in my life.

Life is so like an unbalanced scale most of the time and the funny part is you can never guess which side is the heaviest and why is it so? Because you might end up thinking that the heavier must be the one which is heavy with all the bad memories. Such its heavy like your heart. The other side should be the lighter one because you have put everything away and thus light hearted moment starts.
At times, this will lead you to think about all the positive things that happen in your life might be greater and and at some instances it would be the other way round.

You might just end up at a crossroad thinking and thinking where and why there isn't anything positive or good happening to you...

Well, that's life! Sucks doesn't it.I know because that's how i feel.

However, those were the days where I always used to think that way. The same thought used to repeat itself and I would think that banging my head on the wall was the best way to seek an answer, where its always a futile attempt.
And at some point of time, well we move on. And yes it's taken me longer than it should be. I guess I'm still very skeptical and not too mention conventional too...
Maybe, the wall that's surrounding me keeps me away from everything.. Such as LOVE..Because some thinks the saddest part in my life. But its not for me. I've had fair share of turbulence's without the big letters.

Till recently, I met someone. Someone from a group of friends that I met him while on a road trip to National Park back here.
My oh my can he be a pain.. yes!!
Can he be a sweetheart, yes that too!!
And can he make you laugh?? Without a doubt!!!

Then again something just didn't click. What was it?? Then it me the whole thing reminded me of something.. Yes, its my past!!
Why?????

I guess there is just way to much similarity between the 2 of them, or maybe I see it as similarity or I'm looking for the similarity?

And I guess that was the reason I was attracted to him, which later I realized that it was merely a desperation of myself to fill in the gap that I was feeling...
Yes, after all I'm a normal human being and a women who is simply in her quest for life (which I just figured out)..

At the end of the day what I'm trying to say is that, life took me through many twist, turns, bumps, humps and God knows what else, just for the sake one word "love" and I just didn't have any luck with it...guess I'm just not destined for it or its not my time.

But i realized there is more to life... and now I'm in my Quest for thee!!

Life of Piscine @ Pi

I saw the trailer some time ago, not sure but a couple of months back I think. The trailer intrigued me and made me think how it is possible to picture a live Tiger (he was simply awesome) and a young guy on a life boat?


Hence, I told myself I need to watch this movie -
1 - For the reason it was very intriguing and
2 - To know what the story is actually about - tiger and a boy on a stranded life boat.

I left it as it is, till recently during Deepavali (festival celebrated by Hindu's) , there was tone’s of special program for Deepavali aired on local TV. Here in Malaysia we have the local channel, maintained by the government and as well as the private TV Channel (one and only in Malaysia). Since it’s owned by a private company, one could imagine the extortion of fees done by them.
The greed and need for comfort of sophisticated and up to date entertainment, we oblige the TV company’s whims and nuisance of 1000x times of replay of single movie that actually played over and over for months and might be years.

Well we have to deal with it because there isn’t any choice for decent entertainment. (Unlike me I opt for outdoor entertainment and mostly Internet).

Coming back to the ignition of my curiosity to watch the movie, recently I was in Taipei, Taiwan on a business trip.
Took some time off for myself to move around the city and wow.. It was awesome.
The local TV channels in Taipei with the English movies were constantly playing short video clips and trailers of the movie throughout the days, in between each movie screening. When you keep watching something over and over with no inclination on head or tail of the story, one (who has very high level of curiosity like me, at times *wink) would definitely have the need to see "what the hell is so great about the movie"..
Yes that’s how it all started and I think I'm glad it happened that way because my anticipation level was very high by the time I watched the movie.

Once I reached home, I was going gaga about the movie to everyone including my mom. My mother in recent years watched very limited number of movies in theatre. And considering my continous ranting and rambling and my fixation on the movie, she understood this must be something. Yet she did not spoke anything.

Till the day before we went to the theatre, she did not say yes to accompany me to watch the movie.

Then she managed to watch the trailer and I think she was awe struck by it and she instantly agreed to follow me.

Watching the movie, did and I think would make people wander on the nature of believing in religion and God.

For instance, for those who watched, remember the scene Pi saying prayers before his meal and he would say it to 3 different Gods.

Though the movie and the story is fiction, it was amazingly narrated that it stays and lingers on your mind. The beauty of nature filmed and picturized in the movie was a real feast for the eyes.

I could not imagine how extensive the elaboration of the story in the book might be considering the extent the movie was made.

A friend of mine mentioned that she stopped reading the book the book halfway through because it was very extensive and overwhelming as she was not quipped with such imaginary mind. She even offered me the book, but I declined as I was worried of being demotivated to watch the movie. Hence I didn’t read the book. But after watching the movie, I have requested for the book from her, as I have some perspective of what and how the story goes.

I'm not a good reviewer of any story or book, hence this is not a review of the book but my small perspective of the story.

1- the justice the director and the CGI team has done for Richard Parker was simply breathtaking.

2 - Your believe in God should not be measured how, who and why. Because he doesnt!

3- Never follow others but your own heart at any point of time. Always believe in yourself that I guess leads you to God.

4- Survival is essential and being brave at every "impossible" situation will keep you alive and sane.

5- Being imaginative and thinking of extraordinary things and putting it into perspective for viewing of others makes you definitely a world class Director (Ang Lee).

6- Only problem and qualm I have is the movie was short. I felt it was over too soon.